I can see why Jenelle does the things that she does. It starts at home. She and her Mother have had a very rocky and toxic relationship. Her mother never seemed very supportive of Jenelle, and she put her down a lot. If she did it on the show, then she did it well before Jenelle ever became pregnant with little Jace. Every person handles depression in a different way. I believe that Jenelle was a deeply depressed person. I understand why she would be. When you are constantly yelled at by your own Mother, and called horrible names.......it will leave a mark on you that will never go away. Not a physical mark that one can see, but that emotional mark that goes straight to the bone.
Jenelle handled her depression by lashing out. It's her defense mechanism, when she is deeply hurt and upset. Put yourself in her shoes for just one minute. What if your Mother constantly called you a stupid bitch and a whore? How would that make you feel? Only someone who grew up dealing with this, can truly understand. Those that do understand, will know where I am coming from here.
From the moment Jenelle had Jace her Mom wanted to take control of everything. She never allowed Jenelle that bonding time with Jace. She criticized everything that Jenelle did, instead of trying to help her. Her Mother was never a positive role model to Jenelle. No wonder she turned out so screwed up. Bi polar illness can also be triggered by severe depression stemming from an abusive childhood whether the abuse be physical, emotional or both.
I am not making excuses for Jenelle, because she screwed up. She screwed up big time, but she is paying the price for that. She lost temporary custody of Jace, got arrested, convicted and is now serving a probation sentence. I am trying to get others to understand what led her down this road of self destruction. Like I said earlier, it starts at home. In my heart of hearts I do believe that Jenelle is a good person. She is just severely depressed,and when people are that depressed they do not make rational decisions. They also end up in toxic relationships as a result.
She seems to be really getting her life in order now. She is in college, serving her probation, spending a good bit of time with Jace and she is working on building a relationship with her Mother which they should have had all along. I see her getting Jace back FT. I see her getting a degree, and having a career.
I see a lot of my younger self in Jenelle. I messed up too. I messed up big time. I know that back then my head was so messed up. I was deeply depressed, and honestly I did not even want to live. I paid dearly for my screw up's, and I do not want to see Jenelle live through the personal hell that I have lived through in my mind for the past 20 years. None of us can go back in time. If we could, then this world would be a perfect place to live in. All we can do is work on the "now", and strive for a better tomorrow. I have the utmost faith in Jenelle, that she is going to turn out A.O.K.
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